TOPSY-TURVY FAIRY TALE.

On blogging again!

Hey guys! I’ve finally decided to go writing again. After all, it was my favorite thing to do, before I went too busy on my academics. And now that I have the luxury of time plus, I’ve got a handful of wonderful moments that I need to immortalize through words and photos, it’s time! 

However, I might be more active on my other blog at WordPress. Not that I would abandon this Tumblr account, but I think, I just need to do some more serious writing. But heck, who am I kidding here? I know I know, my posts were pretty mundane. That’s why I might be needing to make the WordPress account a more serious outlet of writings.

So here, to shamelessly plug my WordPress blog, it is: http://simplyalyssamarie.wordpress.com/ I haven’t been to good in fixing web pages, you know, doing the ComSci stuff. So pardon my site, it is still subject to many editing.

I hope you do visit the page. Feel free to comment and criticize. I little in increase on my “site stats” would surely make me smile! Chao! :)

Finally!

Much has happened. Forgive me if I fail to maintain this account (Feeling may fans? HAHA). I have been a busy bee because I had to attend to my thesis and other requirements. Well, guess what? Every hardship, sleepless nights, and tears finally paid off!

I GRADUATED WITH THE DEGREE OF BS DEVELOPMENT COMMUNICATION FROM MY BELOVED UNIVERSITY OF THE PHILIPPINES LOS BAñOS (last April 28, 2012)! ♥

I couldn’t be happier! I am one big dream down! No words could explain the joy, so forgive me for this post. Haha. I’m on my way to the “world of professionals,” as one of my Facebook friends remarked. So let’s get it on! Job hunting mode for a fresh graduate! :)

Again, heartfelt thanks to my family, friends, colleagues, and everyone who was with me all throughout the journey. And to the Lord Almighty, you know what’s in my heart, thank You! ♥

-proud Iskolar NG & PARA sa bayan : Alyssa Marie ♥

Since I'm running out of words..

Love you, I do.

Hi!

If you happen to come across this post, I just want to let you know that I am so thankful for what has happened to us. No, there’s no “us.” But that’s why I thank you. Because for the first time in my life, I have learned to be perfectly contented and how not to expect anything in return. As what I have said before, you really do wonders in my life and I couldn’t thank you enough for that! Without doing so much, you make me smile like there’s no more tomorrow. With the way I look into your eyes, it’s as if nothing would go wrong. And with the accidental contact of our hands, my world suddenly becomes a fairy tale. With you, I can be me. And with you, things always get better. I thank you so much! :)

(The reason why I smile up in that photo is all because of you. You know that!)

Never had I felt this way before. And to tell it again.. Love you, I do.

And will always do..

j-sson asked: HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

THANK YOU VERY MUCH! :)

I didn’t expect someone from Tumblr would be greeting me. Especially someone who I really don’t know personally. So, I appreciate this greeting more than you think. THANK YOU! God bless you :)

Dahil bukas…

(Ika-12 ng Marso 2012)

Ngayon, babalik-balikan ko ang lahat ng ala-ala - masaya, malungkot, o masakit man, ng aking kahapon. Aking babasahin ang mga pahina ng nakaraan - ang nakaraan na humubog sa aking pagkatao. Aalalahanin ang mga pangyayaring minsa’y nagpahagalpak at nagpaluha sa akin. Sasariwain maging mga araw na pagsuko ang tanging natitirang gawin. At magbabalik-tanaw sa mga taong naging dahilan kung bakit ako ngayon ay tumitindig at hindi na muli pang bibitiw agad. 

Akin itong gagawin dahil lilipas na naman ang araw at nararapat lang na balikan ang mga pangyayaring minsan sa buhay ko ay nagturo ng maraming aral. Akin itong sasariwain marahil dahil ito na ang magiging huling sulyap sa kabataang aking naransan..

Dahil bukas.. Bukas ay Marso 13.

Birthday wish.

11 March 2012

Just a few sleeps more, I’m turning 20-oh! Not actually a big deal for me now. I guess, I’m way pass my teenage years of being giddy and all excited every time that day of the year arrives. But still, I have those birthday wishes all up in mind. Here’s a very very short list:

• New pair(s) of sunnies. ‘Coz it’s summer and too hot outside! :D
• A date on Brian McKnight’s concert on the 16th. I could wish for a ticket for myself, but that’d be pathetic for me to go alone on a concert, right?
• Cake or pastries from Conti’s. Just because I haven’t tasted any! I pity my poor self.
• A red dress. For the record, I don’t own any red shirt. That’s why.

As of the moment, those are what I want for my birthday. Simple things that I’d be appreciating, if ever. But of course, I don’t expect a genie would show up and grant these all. I do not even think of anyone giving any of these to me. Hmm.. So I’m thinking.. Might as well, save up for myself and go make these small wishes come to reality. Hehe. :D

But actually, I don’t need any of those. My biggest desire right now is to GRADUATE this April 2012. All I badly want (and need, actually) is to finish my thesis and to have all those good vibes come my way. That would be the best gift. EVER. For as of the moment, everything is still unclear and unsure. :(

I’m doing my best, exerting all efforts.. And hoping that the sacrifices will pay off. The Man above is my strength and hope. 

So if you come to read this post, would it be alright to include me in your prayers? That would be the best gift you could give to me. Thank you! May He bless us all.

Goodbye January 2012

31 January 2012.

Today marks the last day of January 2012. How the days went so fast! 

Personally, my year started so good! What I had as I welcome the new year was a very huge smile. Have you ever felt the feeling of not having much material stuff but you were all feeling contented? That feeling! I was all good and satisfying, in terms of my relationships with people and with my connection to myself! I was even free from all that I was hiding. Indeed, I welcomed 2012 in a very good way. I couldn’t have changed the state I was while I watched the fireworks spark up in the night sky.

But as I just said, days were going too fast! I didn’t notice that in a span of a month, feelings would change that easy. It didn’t even occur to me that what I felt that New Year’s eve wouldn’t last. That everything would just be different, different from what I hoped it would be like. 

Apart from these, time was really tricky. A month has passed with little accomplishments for my academic requirements thesis. Somehow, it made me ‘cram’ things. Not to mention, I became a lazy ass this month. I know, not good. 

January 2012, as it bids tonight, was another difficult month for me. It started good, yes. But the middle of the journey was quite shaky. Didn’t think I’ll be shedding some tears and worrying about tomorrows. But despite all these, I still come back to where my home is. Because as I end this month, I paid a visit to His place. It was, as expected, very awesome and comforting.

That in spite of the trials, He is still there listening to my stories and sobs. He is still there willing to keep me up again. He is still there showing me that I am not alone, that I got a handful of special people along my way. 

As this month ends, I wish nothing but better tomorrows - wiped tears, more will and determination, and a better me. Sure I’ll be crying under the sheets again, but I need to be reminded that it’s not going to end if don’t decide to end it. So, good bye January 2012.

And to you, dear February 2012, I know you’re going to be a tougher month for me (read: thesis! and FebFair and requirements, and Valentine’s Day) but please lessen the emotional burden, aryt? I’m tired and I’m running out of tears. Spare me, please? I will be good, I promise.

..Because like my favorite fireworks in the sky, some things really do come to an end. All that’s left will be the wonders it brought you. And as the colorful sight comes to its final show, all you need to do is wish that the memories, even only the memories, remain. 

Waiting :(

I hate that I’m doing this post out of frustration. Remember how I used to wait? And how I hate that feeling? It sucks, you know.

I used to be patient when waiting for something - coffee or meal orders, service repairs, even laundry. Because I know in due time, they’ll come. I know, no matter how long it will take, it’s still gonna reach me again. But about the uncertain? That’s the waiting I never want to do (but I still continue to do). I feel helpless, clueless, and it’s doing me no good. In fact, I pity myself. And that’s never a good feeling. 

I always wait - always the story of my life. I wonder when the long wait will be over. I keep on questioning myself what the hell is wrong with me? What have I done to wait this long for something unsure to come? Why am I always not good enough? Why does it have to be me?

At this moment, I still wait for the answers. I couldn’t even remember when I started asking these questions. I have lost track on the day I started waiting. Or perhaps is this the universe’s way of telling me to stop?

For heaven’s sake, I still want “that thing” to come! But how long am I going to endure this? How long shall I wait? How long shall I be willing to hold on to that? Oh God, this is seriously killing me. And too bad to say, I’m tired.. 

UP shirt & FX ride

January 17, 2012

Exactly a month ago, as I still can clearly recall, was the day I travelled back home in Antipolo for my most-awaited Christmas vacation. I was wearing a maroon shirt with Oble printed at the center of it. Yes, a UP shirt. I had with me a big and heavy travelling bag and a backpack. Sheez, I looked losyang and haggard because I was intending to bring my clothes and stuff back home.

As I stepped out of the MRT, I felt excited! ‘Coz 1 hour left then I’m gonna be home. I walked until I reached the FX terminal at Cubao, the one at Farmer’s. The FX which was the soonest to leave only needed 1 passenger. I could have been there but due to my luggage, I opted to ride the next FX even if it entailed waiting. I hopped on at the back seat - I was the first passenger, if my memory doesn’t fail.

Minute by minute, other passengers kept on coming too. One big man seated beside me. Come more minutes, I spotted 2 guys (prolly of my age too) heading towards the FX. One of them looked familiar and the other seemed to be good-looking. They sat in front of me. Now imagine the back of the FX again. I was exactly facing the familiar guy and approximately 45 degrees in front of me was the good-looking guy.

Before leaving, the barker collected our fare. Mr. Good-Looking asked me how much the fare is. I answered “50.” Then the ride went on. The 2 guys were talking endlessly while the man beside me was Facebook-ing through his phone. And I was texting, observing, and eavesdropping. Mehehe!

Several minutes, we were encountering some traffic. Still at Cubao area. It was also then that the man beside me was catching some zzzzz’s and the 2 guys were still talking. I even sensed that they were from UST’s Paskuhan the night before. Based from my observation too, the good-looking guy seemed to be an “Isko” too. But of course, all these things I only assumed. I was feeling sleepy already since the ride was taking a bit longer until some funny scenes came along.

As the guy beside me was sleeping, his head suddenly hit the FX’s door. As if we all heard a loud “bang” and the 2 talkative guys stopped, looked at each other and laughed. While I, being alone, controlled myself not to laugh or even smile. I thought it would just be a one-time scene. But NO! In another minute, he was seamlessly sleeping and banging his head again - CONTINUOUSLY! And thing is, he wasn’t waking up! As I was controlling myself again, a fat little girl seated in the middle part of the FX suddenly snored! Oh heavenly God! The scenes were too hilarious for me. The 2 guys couldn’t help themselves - they were really laughing aloud! And as far as I wanted to project a poker face, I couldn’t! I was smiling, discreetly laughing, and texting (just to divert attention). HAHAHAHAHA That moment, I felt like I was on some gag show. :D

Luckily, after the funny scenes, the man woke up and the fat girl also did. So the FX was all peaceful again. Thank the heavens! I could have been punched by the big man if he caught me laughing AT HIM. Hahahahahaha! 

Thought the impossible ride was over. But this good-looking guy unepectedly talked to me: “Ate, kelan balik natin?” I assumed he was referring to UP’s class resume. I also caught his eye direction on my shirt. And as courteous as I was, I told him: “Sa UP ba? Sa UPLB kasi ako nag-aaral. Pero sa January 3 ang resume namin.” With those few words, the conversation started. The guys asked me if I also live in Antipolo, what batch am I, my course, and where I attended high school. 

When I answered about my alma mater, they were asking if I know <insert batchmates’ names>. I said yes, of course. Then this familiar guy asked if I know Bea. Before he could finish the question, I interrupted him. “Bea Sevilla ba? Oo kilala ko siya. Bestfriend ko siya eh.” And they were both “Ooooohh!” Only to find out they were all churchmates. In a “smaller world” context, this familiar guy is even my bestfriend Bea’s cousin. Then I figured out why he was familiar. We have met each other some time ago at Bea’s birthday party. Haha. Small world!

Our conversations were getting fun as we encountered some traffic again. I think, that was at Santolan-Marikina area. When all of a sudden when it’s time to move, the FX wouldn’t start! We were in the middle of the road while other vehicles were blowing horns on us. Then the driver went on “Mga boss, tulak naman oh.” I was like, “WTH” but in another funny way! HAHAHA All of the males seated with me at the back pushed the vehicle while I can’t help but laugh and tell myself “This is indeed an impossible and funny travel back home.”

It was a long ride, really! But to cut it short, the 2 guys and I went on the same tricycle after reaching Antipolo. Their destination was on the way to our home that’s why we went together. Thanks for that! Lesser fare for me. Haha.

After that ride, I gained 2 friends - online, through text, and in real life. And that good-looking guy has also become a good comrade. We even went out once (see older post) and still communicating. Just don’t know where will this “new friendship” bring me/us. But nevertheless, thank God for that maroon UP shirt! And for that choice of riding the next FX. As this friend just said,

“things happen for a reason.”

I just hope I wouldn’t regret that day which I am close to doing so. Well.. Let’s hope. 

Yes, quite a long post! Ang daldal ko eh!